Reflection

Looking back at life at the age of 20, I didnt realise how childish or immature I was. I always believed that I was mature and that people would realise my existence and yet I find out that I have been trying too hard. Why do I bother to get peoples' attention when they dont bother. Am I that desperate? Am I that unpopular are questions I used to ask myself in the past. And yet I discover, Im not alone, I dont have to be envious of others or pretend to be others cause I am what makes me different. I made some stupid foolish mistakes in the past but now I know that I have done wrong and yet time can't be turned back. Regret is a saying to remorse is the action to be taken to make myself better but Im not feeling it. I know Im still stuck in my own little world, I never notice how the world had changed around me, and when I do, Im late, I lose touch with people and find myself rock bottom again. Somwtimes i just wish that to be wad to forget and yet theres no way anymore.

A snowy christmas

Man, though I am not one to complain but I could certainly do so, a one in 17 chance and counting, please help me!!

Anyways am not getting enough sleep, OMG! and always going to school everyday, so not me!

But its for the best but I have a tiny wish!

Give me a white christmas!!!

Merry Christmas 2009 to alll!
May all your wishes come true!
Tell me your Wish! :D

A Saturday...Again..

Funy how a day in Year 2.2 or even a week can pass by faster than can "Blast off in the speed of light!"

Life is like so robotic these days, its like the milestone of the week will be SSM, then comes the holidays of Thurs, Fri and the Weekends to enjoy before it comes around again.

Its already coming to the fourth week... seriously the ppl in SSM are starting to get to me,
for example I went to youtube and saw this video where it ended with the little boy showing the "Loser" sign on his forehead, instant recollection of the everyday headman.

Even nowsdays just on regular schooldays, I'm so stressed on a strand oof hair just sticking up, probably thinking I am going to fail grooming!!

Serious my hair is going to fall out after all this anyway but at least there is a place I can just release though it may be gone now, but I will always treasure it.

I don want to leave!!

Boy Its been long, I mean time flies as fast as leaves fall off trees or even as fast as F1 cars speeding throgh the various gates.

Just another week before School starts, Hooray I guess but it means the year is ending soon,so fast my first milestone in life has been reached, I really hope to acomplish my next one before the next semester starts.

Once again thinking ahead of everyone else. All I want is to better lead a life with less regrets but more happy moments in life.

Its time to be independent and show the world What I'm made Of!!!

"ITS MY LIFE "
ITS NOW OR NEVER

Missing Life

A long while again, for now, its all about exams and exams, who kew what contributed to the success of condominium hotels, I mean hello where are u?

But anyway, now that I am out of TAS, I feel sad, guess sometimes you really regret when things are over...

Nowadays I feel really emo, I am not sure but i am positive that something is missing from my life though I am not sure what it is, but anyways just want to apologise for something and say thanks for something, I hate to squel it out so if you know it, you do.

But for now its time to sign off as waiter of SSM!!!! 'Tadatada'!!!

Wishes..

I sit here, not knowing what to do nor what I want..
Life was a blur, I mean getting down at a dark stop, people passing you, they seemed so familiar yet you know they have no connection to you whatsoever.
What ever happened to hi, never or even a nod?
I guess life is different as you grow,
you realise the deepest thoughts they can have on a fellow man, but even when it happens, there comes a time for decisions/choices.
I hate choices, I want a life, I want....
I guess I am selfish but its human to err right?
Don be sad, if you need me, I will be there from a far.
Just feel mty existence and all will be well.
TRUST me.

Long times...

Wll, I haven touched this blog in like...maybe a few months or less. Anyway many things have changed and happened over this few months, projects have been handled up, people change and grow up. Just things like that.

Personal wise, my cousin, Lincoln is a year and a few months now and is already able to walk, OMG and his only word is only Apple which he pronounces as Arpu! That is like so cute but hey, I'm just gald to be part of his growing process.

For myself, I have just gotten my 'Sabre' and used it once in Fencing class! Hooray for me! haha this class has been fun for me, I guess in a way it helps me to look differently on how life can sometimes revolves around a small tiny thing like attacking.

I have also changed my favorite Idol group from S.H.E to a korean girl group known as Girls Generation. They have recently received a lot of love on their recent 2nd mini album, "Tell me your wish Genie". Its awnsome and everybody is waiting for the Genie syndrome to take off after their success of the Gee syndrome. But anyway, Hwaiting girls!!!

School wise, I guess I will miss studying at TAS, though its far from my home, but its been fun, we get to enjoy ourselves and furthermore see a amusement park unfold before our very eyes! Plus with the very 'NICE' descriptions of SSM from Yuxin, makes me cannot wait just to go back to TP next term. Haha.

Oh yeah heres another gossip before I sign off, Mrs Moraes is now teaching Mass Communications at SP!!!! OMG!!! But anyways, just want to wish her luck in her career and many thanks to her for teaching me for four great years in East View. Gamsahamnida!!!

Heres wishing everyone a enjoyable week ahead!! Hwaiting!!!!!