Todae is New years eve..31/12/08..

The time is 10:27am.. only about 13 hours left til the year changes from 2008 to the big 2009...
I just cannot believe it...Back in the year 2007 at this time of the year, I was just a lowly vegetable packer waiting for my O level results to come out.... But now, here I am, a Leisure and Resort Management Student in her first year and second sem..... How time passes..

Anyway, I would like to say my new year resolutions before th year officially ends..
1) Be nice to all people especially Nicole( although she often curshes at me)
2) Learn new talents to make myself better as a individual
3) Decide what kind of life I am going to take
4) Appreciate the finest and most precious things in life.
5) BE as happy as always regardless of the situation :)

Lastly, I would like to say that this year has led me to realise that there are far too many fragile things in life not as in physical but mentally... Perhaps its cause my hormones are changing my brain, spinning it til it starts to mess up whatever I had actually wanted.. But for now, all I want is just some calm, peacefulness and some happiness in my life cause this 3 years of my life are crucial that is til I follow my aunt's wishes and go abroad to study in a university....
Maybe its just me but why is it so hard to be a teenager!?

....HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Start of new School Term..

Hey everybody, two weeks of holidays have like passed us so fast in like a blink of an eye..
But anyway, hope everyone had as much fun as i did. HAHA
Anyway, I went to Taiwan on the first week of holidays and now due to my overstreched body cranking me for a rest, I have no choice but to post my pics a bit later.

Also finally in 2008, I welcomed new new additional baby cousins to the family... They are Jelexis, Lincoln and Royston... whom are all '17' YEARS YOUNGER THAN ME....Oh MAN!!!! HAHAAA!

Now there are many more projects to pile up so I am just waiting to the new chinese newyear to get it done with..hahha

Anyway heres wishing everyone

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!

Nuts

Wow todae is like the worst day of my life, first we took bus 8 but it always is very crowded..then next when I wanted to go for marketing goup discussion, the lift came down full of stupid people who anyway wanted to just come down to the first floor...Imagine that....
Then I went to use my laptop with Nicole..then anyway, her laptop could connect faster than mine to TP's network and for me, I started at 12:57pm and only got my connection at 2:41pm... Talk about being ironic...but anyway it include a couple of shut downs and stuff..

Then I came back from POM lecture and saw that Nicole had gone crazy like she started asking me questions on where is L.A. duh...everyone knows its in america but no..her answer is L.A. is in north america, California, L.A.
Talk about WTH is she yapping about...
anyway, i have a WT quiz later at 6pm...Hope I pass man..
Plus should I donate my preious blood which is the laste of the lengendary vampires..
HAHA Just kidding!!!!

Anyway Thanks to Zippy who has been helping me these days.:)

I'm happy...

Today I had a friendly talk with Zippy, a new friend I made from my childhood..Haha..
I guess that it was fate when we met but for now, we are still able to get back to bond we had. He opened me up to many things that I was afraid to face and he was there by my side when I felt lonely or sad... I know we will go our seperate ways soon but I want you to know that I will be there for you as much as you will be there for me....

:) I can only waish you the best and thank you for the happiest days of my life..

Thanks Zippy!

Japanese culture

How happy was I when I got Japanese for a CDS, I mean friends there, new teacher, but I just need more practising cause I can be a little lazy to revise but I had better start soon...

How I wish I was born in that culture cause I would have a life and people around would be sensitive, polite and understanding to others..

But I guess wishes just cannot come true sometimes....

Ironic- :S

How ironic that my last post happened to be a week ago and done almost exactly the same time now. But I'm not laughing cause...well I don know, I just feel so complicated..I mean visible things ditch me, talk to me...make jokes..But my life is like so set..I mean a group of people does not mean eternity forever..

I mean just grow up cause I am not going to just feed somebody else when we are in the working environment...

One can be used to a secondary school environment but just get out of it or lose the life forever..Too ridiculous but it can be true.

"ITs my life, Its now or never.."
Thats how I live my life now and it will not change!

Saturday stress..

Woke up pretty late this morning..Haha ok maybe about 12pm.. Then I watched clips of the 43th Golden bell awards..So cool.. I mean Ariel won best actress and Jacky wu and a ya finally won best host after a 12 year wait.

Haha looks like good things do come to the suface when a silver lining is hanging in the air...
My life is getting a up turn now I guess at least according to the stars..haha

I feel like a group of ppl that come together have got to have the luck and courage to work together so now..I hop that many will forgive me for the steps I may take..
My apologises to many first....

Best of luck!!!

Boredom

Today is the 30th of October 2008... Now I am all alone in the free access lab..So here I am blogging. I just had a two hour tutorial on FnB but it was fun cause we only watch like the documentary.. "Super Size ME". So ya but like my lecturer is again the same as the teacher we had for my lecture... Boring maybe but if he keeps quiet..Its a completely different scenario all over.

Yesterday I finally met my Marketing tutorial teacher..Cool english accent, weird hairdo..but overall I actually paid my full attention and understood what I should be doing in the class..
One word to describe the class...AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!

I think that I have a stuffed nose cause I cannot breathe properly..or is it all the tuna sandwiches.. Anyway I have a camp to go to soon on a Sat and Sun with Nicole who promises that she is free on those days.. Plus later at 4pm, I have a Jap tutorial and lecture to go to..
Wish me luck to pay full attention..HAHA

Anyway, Pls support S.H.E's new 11th album "FM S.H.E"
It totally rawks!!!!!!

Third week of Holiday...

Wow so long since i came up and blog le...Just came about i guess..
I recently became very emo..Like being quiet and stuff and thinking that I am just a big fat joke.. haha theres is a pun in there too haha..But like I just went on a marathon of not sleeping for two days le...But I still like super energetic... I finally completed GTA IV with my bro's help and now we are currently playing UEFA 2008...Super fun to play as captain of country..
Like the game is trying to teach you to become a leader and that you have to control the whole game in order to progress upwards like from a small B international to the captain of the A graders that carry the face of our peoples' pride...

Life is precious some link it to a game or a joke like a obstacle to fo past in life...
But what is a joke?
When is the joke?
Or How can the joke be played to see ourselves being laughed at...

A statement was said recently..
Those who succeed take themselves to be the treasures of planet earth and failures just roam on the streets taking in air of earth which they should be paying for....

A kind of funny question recently popped up in my head:
Whatever I have done doesn't mean I can have you or be a substitute in your life,
because I know I can make you touched..But have I entered your heart?

Today..

Today is the third day of holiday... But still woke up this morning with the thought of going to school..HAHA.. I know very lame..So I threw my alarm clock halfway across the room and went back to sleep...Woke up at about 12 noon...Then I skipped around my house for a while before my neighbour came over and asked me to quieten down for her mahjong kakis...

Whatever..Anyway..I went on to play GTA but still not completed..


Here I will intoduce my only brother...Jerrold Woo jun jie..
Being eleven and a half this year..Hes taking PSLE and has absolutely full confidence of passing...
Here taken in Korea.
Quite a adorable guy..But speaks lots of crap..

Holidays start now

Holidays start now...haha..I woke up at like 12 pm..
Cause came back late yesterday but yeah.. I missed my running time...
so I will be jogging later with my fat little brother..
I realised that Poly life is very different in the sense..
I see myself in different paths of life that I would never see in secondary sch..
I do miss things but life can be a blur sometimes..
I am just confused I guess..
But I will work hard and make a name for myself..
Jia You!!!!!!!

Today...A adventure

Today I had a nutty adventure..I mean going to east coast park then.
Eating steamboat with 3 bowls of ice cream..HAHAHA I so happy..
But we later had a drink with some alcohol...Knew it was bad..
But went along due to peer pressure..HAHA
In the end..I was kind of mellow..But my mates..
Were well some were nuts like all drunk and we were all in like
disbelief cause it was only a little and they were like layghing crazily
all over the place..still remember...
JunHao saying Cockroach in hokkien as we walk near the drain..
HAHA he screamed like super loud then nearby residents all freaked out..
HAHA anyway i just reached home..Super tired..Want o go to sleep le...
HAHA

Now catching!!!!

Nowadays I am watching the last few episodes of BBT!!

模范棒棒堂 the 底迪畢業典禮..... They are all going their own ways..
After 2 years together... Kinda reminds me of my mates..

But my favourite is still 小馬, 伊賀蒼太.....

黑糖群俠傳 is also a veri nice show must watch.. HAHA
黑GIRL is a new group and their song is veri nice...

无敌珊宝妹 is another new show that stars: Zhang Dong Liang

and Guo Cai Jie...

The show is veri cute and really is a topic touched on by everyone today...

Exams over....

I today ended at like 10:56... I was done at about 10:30am..
Then I looked up and saw that YJ had passed up her paper..
My OS was "For once..she finish so fast.."
Then upon realizing that I couldnt squeeze anthing out of my head...
I followed suit and left.. Then we just discussed on wat was the answers and stuff..
But Samanti was the first one to leave...so I was bored I guess..
Then I walked all the way to take bus 21..At ike the other end..
I realised that the bus was exactly the bus I had took in the morning..
Talk about fate..
Tmr is teacher's day celebrations at my old school..
Going to party all day then relax for 5 weeks!!!
Missing is a pain but is a must....

I guess I'll miss you guys..
But am too shy to say...

Holidays...

Time passes by so fast....already many months since old buds met again..
But I am getting really tired..Not sure is cause of exams..
Or I feel that something is missing in my life...
Not sure who or what to say..
Not sure where or how to show..
Once or twice..I never know..
Too many things to do and say..
But when will it all happen...
Once or never
perhaps in a zillion years..
But I hope it will come soon
On a wishing star..

Study Week

Today is the start of Study week....
So sian...must study some more..
The BCS test came out okay...Much different from wat I expected..
But still can pass la I think..
Next on the list is Ob, Econs, INHT and RHT....
so many subjects..
One tiny brain...
Though it can take long, but still I believe I can do it..
With my guts of fury..
I can fly..
Haha..I am little nuts now...
But Soon..I shall be different!!!!

Sian

Today 15 August....Tried to walk to school..
but it takes an hour just to get there...
Still considering...
Later went for INHT lecture..only 25 mins
So fast..Actually I am very scared of exams but
I think I make myself stress-free so I very relaxed..
HAHA Many would kill me if i said this...
Went to eat lunch and came back on a bus that finally comes faster then the rest
No I have to study BCS cause tmr has the test that I dun want to fail..
But this topic is super boring....
So Sian.....

Time

Time passes by so fast..
A name is but a pin in the tree laid in one's head...
I recently found an old fren's blog...
I tagged her and she replied...
I was happy..I guess...But I suppose the challenge is:
Really finding back the bond that brought us together in the first place...

A secret once told me that when you feel uncherished..
It means you are being uncherished cause the sixth sense is very sensitive...
relationships were mentioned in the context where influences can be good or bad
depending how you would probably look at it....

But I dun understand cause I am still old me...
Old me..old boring me...old kind me...
A dream is a wish the heart makes..
But will it come true..
Now thats the challenge....

National day..

Stand up for Singapore!!!
Do the best you can!!!!

Today is our beloved country....Singapore's 43th birthday!!
Yeah!!!!!
Hers wishing her a great future economically and environmentally
cause if she is not doing well...then the rest of us cannot do well either.
Fireworks...here I come!!!

05/08/08

Today ...the time is 11:27 am..
Still in BCS class..Haiz Sian... Super not my type..
Cause later still got OB presentation...
Was wearing formal pants to school and like super early too...
But today got big news sia...
Lik someone kind of like told someone else that the person so-called had feelings for her..
HAHAHA..So finally the secret is let out of the bag...
Finally we have no need to cover up for the person's deep admiration for the certain someone..
YES....Locked lips are hard to open..
But open lips have the freedom to play...
Anywway..
I still have work so got to go..

Haiz....

Another sunday and another week gone..
Why...Why does time pass by so fast..Mr wolf..
I remember the past where as little kids we played a game called Mr. Wolf.

It goes..."Whats the time? Mr Wolf"
and he would go"Its two o'clock" which meant two steps forwards towards him..
Haha..memories great all of them..
But now..too many projects keep my head very dizzy..
Now I just completed my econs article...like I had to go round and ask others..
How much a pig caused? and their reactions were"How was i to know?"

Exactly...so how will I know...how much a pig cause...
and how much it eats.. Dots..
But at least one project halfway down, now I have the group part left..
Then Lets get going!!!

Today....

Today the 1st of August
It was a day of heartbreaks and happiness
To the ppl..that know..we made it through and I hope we can get stronger and stop focusing on the closemess of relationships between ppl
But we have ironed things out and must be respectful and nice to one another..OKAY!!!

Haha..Enough on that
Argh..Today was INHT test…Super no mood cause today was supposedly OB presentation..
However due to unforeseen circumstances..It was cancelled..yea..hip hip hooray!!
But it takes place next week and I have to wear formal to school again):
Not a happy camper I am..
But anyway the test was average la..Thank goodness for all the attention-paying in lectures..or the consequences would have been super negative…

But anyway ...Today rockz!!!

Comm Skills and haircut...

Today..30/07/08...was my Comm Skills individual presentation..
It had to be done cause it is for the participation marks....
I also cut a new hairstyle the day before..but many say that I look noob..
So from wig to noob..Haiz...
Roxann was very nervous today..she has been practicising for a long time since
last friday I think...but today she managed to ask teacher to change the positions of
ppl presenting which meant that I was 1st...

I was super scared...but my comments since sec sch were the same as poly..
Talking too fast....not enough eye contact...but I have been trying and hope I will.
Teacher like my visuals cause I was presenting on Sangsoo Herbland in Korea
I showed them pics of the flower meal and structures that I took there..

But I totally blew it when she asked me if i had tasted it and if it was to my liking...
I actually said "NOT MY TYPE"........
I was like so shocked that I had actually said that cause..
FOUR ppl namely Samanti, ZY, YJ and especially ROXANN
were laughing their pants off..

I kind of now like promised myself not to say these words again..
But its hard cause a leopard never changes its spots ya...

Anyway..I have to buck up for comm skills grp presentation as the marks there
are like super critical.....
And i want to pass this subject...

Oh man INHT test is in two days.....
Think I will go study..Not...But I have to..

So...GO GO GO ROCKETS!!!!!!!!!

Animals..

Everyone in Chinese is borned in a year of an animal..
But few believe that we inside have got the spirits of the animal inside us...
That day I was having a chat with a secret...
She said that

Roxann-was a pig cause she was fat..

YokeJin- was a lion cause she was a leader but like super fierce...Now she is a mother hen cause when she wears specs...very professional but not my type...

Nurul-was a pest namely a flea...cause she keeps on jumping here and there to different people parts.

ZhiYing-was a squirrel cause she think she very cute but supports Jam hisao!!!She and Yj also have buck tooth.

Samanti-she when pissed like super pissed but when she is nice is like a nice little tiger...so kind and nice

Suling-a forest...cause she is a peacemaker...Mother of the forest...like YokeJin in the sense as a mother hen just that she is protector of human and nature.

Jacquelyn-A hedgehog...cause when someone comes near, I prick others... and when I am nice...I am friendly..but ZhiYing thinks that I am a teddy bear cause i am nice to cuddle:(...Not my type...

So overall...This is what we are on earth..just a bunch of rowdy animals....Trying to have fun while we can!!!

Silence...

Here I am going to shoot my mouth off again...
Sometimes I too offend people without knowing and deep down
am super afraid to even admit this cause like I ain't got no guts to do what is right and wrong...
Sometimes i kid around a little too much til people can get tired of it..
Cause its like the same joke over and over again... And I have been scolded before for being a idiot with no other jokes and stuff.....
But thats how I am just some lame person who cannot strike up a conversation with another person by saying "Nice weather, we're having." Its just not me...And I hate it...
Having no skills of talking to people is like unheard of in my family...
And even some of the aunts and uncles would often make jokes of whether I have made friends in school cause they have seen just how unpopular I am......

I hate people like that....What do they know about me...
I see them only once a week sometimes once in 3 months.....
I hate all this....
I just want to get out of my shell and just stop looking around for pitiness from others..
Others I don need pitiness...I can walk well, my five senses work perfectly...
The only thing thats horrible...my introvertiness...

Pitiness was a thing from the past that made others to even befriend me
" Oh poor Jashi has no friends and sitting in a corner by her poor little self..."
Well no more of this crap...

From Today...I am not poor old Jashi...I am confident Jashi...
I shall open myself up even if I have to dig deep in myself
cause reality sucks and if I don't grow now
The chance will no longer come in the future..
and thats where I want to be headed in the right direction...

A better Me

Memories...

Yesterday and Today....
I just went with the frens of the present to eat at some fast food restaurants...
There it sparked many memories...Like at the chicken place..
Was one I shared with a secret, her only favorite place in the world was there..Though i had no interest at first but it reminded me of times together that we now failed to meet..
The fish place was where a certain buddy would hang out together before we shared stuff that no one knew but all is gone...cause we grew up..went our separated ways...Hopefully...we will cross paths again soon....
There i remembered watching S.H.E where i got tickets by sending in a gigantic envelop...
My old fren would never understand my needs and spit out stuff that nevr went through her head...and I was like always cleaning up after her....and I realise that though we shared similar interests...
she was never there when i needed her help...rather i was her support in a sense..
But she never supported me in terms of like when I cut a new look..
She was the first to dish me off or any defensive thing I did to protect other friends would incur her wrath which woul piss her off.....
I just wonder how long the friendship will last.....cause I still feel emptiness..
Being friends with her.........................

Quiet

Just want to say something to a very old dark secret....
Life has been quiet with out you
Life has been a blur
Life is a Whatever
But life still goes on....

Goals have changed
Clothes have shrunk
Boats capsized around the world
People changed in split seconds...
Health deteriorating in time...

My life could be lonesome without YOU......

OB PROJECT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haiz... the time is 10:15pm... My clients are still not done giving their statements...
Super crap...Just want to get it over and done with....but too sad...
Had to open moi's big mouth and say lame stuff on OB....SIGH....................
My clients are...
Samantha: Guilty as charged but seeing her work was done...Gets a new nickname:Samanti
Roxann: Not as guilty but still chargeable...Punishment: eating 10 chicken thighs everyday!!
ZhiYing: Article base was not correct..overdue date...Gets to spend the jail cell with Roxann forever by playing badminton forever.....
YokeJin: Always playing a fool, make ppl 喷大便 ,喷饭 , 喷血 .....Haiz...So she gets to spend her lifetime with SISSY Guy Forever..

End of Trial....Will all the charged..Please stand up
Please stand up!!!!!!!!!!!!

Chat Two@@@

Just had another chat the other day with Jashi...
Me: How I wish we were floating on the clouds looking at the skies than on this rough ground..
Jashi: Too bad..We are just humans not able to take off whenever we want...
Me: So hows life lately....Been quiet without you...
Jashi:(Face turned) so what...We got to lead our own lives....Ain't no matter whether we are talking or not...
Me: I am soryy..I didn't mean it that way..I just..I just wanted to..to..
Jashi:(Sighs) After so long...What have you achieved...Could you even name me one...No I forgot you couldn't..Why...Cause you have no spirit...you have so low esteem..you do nothing but daydream everyday....Sometimes I wonder why I even made friends with you...
Me: I...I..I...I thought we had something..a thing that made us friends...
Jashi: Well so sorry to tell you that all was but nothing....we were just people looking for comfort in others that led to this friendship...After so long..I have made friends of my own...While you are still clinging onto me...I HATE THAT...
Me:(Wide eyed) I...I..I thought that we were friends..we were...
Jashi: (raised voice) WELL NOW WE'RE NOT....I..I..I JUST HATE IT THAT YOU HAV TO ACT LIKE A LOST KITTY OR SOMETHING TREATING ME AS A COVER FOR YOU FROM ALL THE DAMN TROUBLES....SERIOUSLY...WHY WON'T YOU GET A LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH YEAH AND FORGOT ABOUT CALLING ME NO MORE...CAUSE WE ARE OVER!!!!!
Me:(In tears) Wait..Don't go...I..I really treated you as a friend..I..I..Jashi...Don't.....go....

A small voice by the beach was softly heard...

"Don't go...my only best friend..."

HAHAHAHA

Nowadays I just want to laugh out loud and I mean really loud...
But who will be there to hear....Myself...Jashi...or even anyone?
I used to look at myself as someone cool maybe even a role model to look up to...
But after going through the many times of having to make friends and separate from
them again.....I find myself at a deep end like...the computer would be my best friend or
looking at others having fun makes me sad but happy for them.
I know myself as one that people will avoid...detest or maybe even make fun of.
Cause I have been a victim of being stupidly made fun of without a clue...
I have locked myself up tightly but I have been too afraid to even accept a new something or someone with out even looking at the whole picture. One of these days...I will open up and be a new me. One with accomplishments, one with wit and even one who can gain other's respect...
My only wish...

Haiz.....Sian

Today, the 22nd of July 2008. We had a presentation for BCS......
But one of my members failed to turn up by the fact that he sent us a sms at 6am in the morning!!!!!!
But overall we survived...and our red background was dazzling in the sense that it was kinda better than others.
XG was right in the sense that sometimes secrets have to be kept in order not to hurt a certain
someone but other times... the truth may best be told in terms of pettiness...
like importantness should be known as importance...
But Yoke Jin very lame today like keep on saying as like which sounded like has in.....
then presentation only say one slide..... then giv me coins instead of a note to pay me back.....
SUPER LAMER!!!!!!!

Haiz.....

People were always right when things were meant to be were meant to be...
But sometimes the wonder of being in destiny of love...Can be cool or bad...
Someone asked me the other day what i would do....
I too ever wondered what love would be.....But wats more important.....
Love or friendship???????
Qing Qing once was a leader but can be weak in terms of love but friendship was never one with love...
Haiz... even I have no idea wat I am talking or feeling now!!!!!!!!!!!!

INHT Roxz

My group of INHT consists of:

Roxann- Leader but always hungry.

Suling- Dramatic and loves taking pictures.

Nurul Ain- Super lame but hardworking

Yoke Jin- Ah Lian style with 'smelly feet' but super funny. She also has a new nickname: 小 晴!!

Jashi(Me)- Quiet with lame jokes.



Our project just ended this morning, 18/07/08, but like we had a great time and I have to say the best group I have enjoyed being with this 17 years of moi's life!!!!!



Another good news was.... My field trip Report mark was....(drumroll)... an A!!!

Super cool ya....But anyway... lets hope that we can team up together once again
and be the best group ever!!!!



For we are RSNYJ: Really Sexy Not Yetis Jups!!!

Sad story II

Lenny is a gal who has been with her friends for only a hort while as they just started college together. She was glad at first that she had managed to find pals as she was a very shy perso. But soon she realised that the group was behaving weirdly in the sense where they were always talking behind other's backs or just doing nasty stuff. But what hurt her most was her old friends thought that she was one of those bad gals, always playing practical jokes and stuff on the teacher. One day as they were all discussing their project, lenny flared up at them as they were just gossiping instead of doing work. She flung all of the group's papers on the ground and screamed at them: You should look at yourself first before talking about others!
With that, she ran away and hid behind a pillar as it was hurtful for her.
She thought that she was helping her friend little did she know that...from then on they avoided her like a pest, treated her as invisible and were even closer than ever...while Lenny could and only look on forever.......

Chat One@@@

Just had a chat with my other self, Jashi....
Me: How long have we not chatted? Being months now...
Jashi: You nuts, woman! We just like so totally communicated YESTERDAY!
Me: Oops.. Sorry, can't blame me for being forgetful with super many projects.
Jashi: yeah, i guess... But you seemed to be trying to break away from me...Are YOU!?
Me:(Staring at the clouds) Maybe I am... I want to lead a normal life too....I am not like you ...so daring and stuff... never like you...
Jashi:(Pissed) Just keep that stupid chin of yours up! Stop pitying yourself! You think that others will care if you are even dead! Why even if you were in the same room with others, They wouldn't even notice YOU!!!!
Me: But I...I...I thought...
Jashi: You thought your stinking head!!! Get this straight! I am here cause you think me up! I am not real nor even alive! You're the one living! So why can't you solve your stinking problems!!!!!
Me: I....I....But your are like my only best pal!!!!
Jashi:(Sarcastic) Best pal shita whatever.....You know what I have had enough of this shit with you especially!!! You know.. the sight of you irks me and your body is like one big damn hippo and I don't mean it in a nice way!!! So just...
Me: Jashi....I can be different.. Just don't leave me!!!! Our friendship...Isn't it important??
Jashi:(Back facing me) I guess it never was all that important to me....(Calmed down) You were my best bud I ever had but we all knew that we were different like you and books and I with drumming.....(Facing me) As much as I want to keep this friendship... I just want to say that we should go our own ways... go after our dreams...you know..just..let's just...GET OUT OF EACH OTHER'S FACES!!!!!!!!!!(Turns) Good-Bye....old friend....
Me:(Teary) No... I dun want you to go....Stay Please..Stay...

SOUNDS OF CRIES FROM A SAD LITTLE GIRL COULD BE HEARD FAR AND WIDE.....

Then a voice croaked:......Good-Bye...My Best Friend.......

Winner!

I miss being happy...Most of the time but aren't most ppl feeling this way?
maybe....but i often hide in the shadow of others and i never lift my head up....Why...
Don't I have the courage and stuff but I don't think I have cause..
I am a winner in a loser's shell.....

Lonely....

Sometimes I find my self walking with my head downwards and with a heavy backpack..
When I look up, I will see the dead end and somehow when I turn to walk out of the dead
end, I see another dead end like I am enclosed in this place with little breathing space..
in darkness.... I cannot cry out or even hear myself..... all I see is the replay of an image..
A enclosed heart with steel covering it and a rusty old looking lock by its side....
No matter how I touch it... It has no way of opening... Why.....
Is it the fear that encloses me or just the littlest things that I can't seem to let go...

Sad Story Part One....

Adam and Charlie were best friends since they were living next door to each other on Amber Street where only the rich of the richest lived. Their parents even knew each other, it was just perfect for everyone. Adam's dad, Brad and Charlie's dad, Mark grew up in a environment that they were giving their boys and had learned to share many things including love at one point... But this time in terms of Brad's wife, Mary, Brad learned to be possessive and when knew that his best mate, Mark was interested, swore to protect Mary from Mark's filthy hands from being a playboy for too long. What Brad didn't know was Mary had initially planned to know Brad to know Mark as she was in love with Mark at that time but as Brad was really kind to her, she decided to accept him but her heart still belonged to Mark's. After 5 yrs of courtship, at 25 years of age, Brad and Mary decided to wed which left Mark very heartbroken. But at the night before the wedding, Mary and Mark met up one on one and something happened that will affect the future of both families......

Relieved but Nervous....

Tomorrow was supposed to be my INHT presentation.....
But we were let off the hook and postponed to next week due to
Nurul's sprained ankle and our fellow leader, Roxann's badly sprained back, which is by far the worst back I have ever seen.... But anyway... In this way, poor Yoke Jin will be able to recuperate and sleep soundly tonight.... And dream of her Expo guy the whole night..... As for SuLing, well...probably the most hardworking as her script is done and like in three pages so ya...
As the last member of the group.... Well I guess I am just too happy go lucky that
I have been getting enough sleep and able to have no stress whatsoever at all...
So I am kind of like the group's paramedic giving them medicine each time they need it!!!
So Yeah gals put our hands together and make the presentation the best ever!!!!
Go INHT GROUP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

公主幫 冒險世界..Must Support!!!

公主幫 - 冒險世界 sung by: 毛弟 翰獎 小馬 阿本 野獸

聚光燈照亮的瞬間
我仿佛流著超人般熱血
寫下動人的那章節
為了你 我什麼都不怕就算前方
有再多的冒險

要跟著你一起走向前
有多困難我不怕危險相漫畫裡面的情節 我想變成誰
突然間手裡握著寶劍 下一刻在筋鬥雲上面
想象著世界會因我而改變 Spotlight

聚光燈照亮的瞬間
我仿佛流著超人般熱血
寫下動人的那章節
為了你 我什麼都不怕
就算前方 有再多的冒險

看著我執著的堡壘 仿佛了我的夢想起飛
而現實生活的考驗 勇敢去面對
對未來永遠保持信念 而現在我們肩並著肩
想象著世界會為我而改變 Spotlight

聚光燈照亮的瞬間
我仿佛流著超人般熱血
寫下動人的那章節
為了你 我什麼都不怕

聚光燈照亮的瞬間
我變成焦點 超越那極限
誰說不可能的預言
為了你 我什麼都不怕
就算前方 有再多的冒險

RAP：小時候 也有夢想
轉眼間 一個希望
毫不猶豫勇敢向前闖
發光 發熱 發亮
公主幫 JUMP JUMP
絕對不會退讓
全力對抗所有阻擋
公主幫 YOUNG YOUNG
無限能量
天空 飛翔 飛翔

聚光燈照亮的瞬間
我仿佛流著超人般熱血
寫下動人的那章節
為了你 我什麼都不怕

聚光燈照亮的瞬間
我變成焦點 超越那極限
誰說不可能的預言
為了你 我什麼都不怕
就算前方 有再多的冒險
就算決定照亮我的世界

Sad...

I used to think that friends would last forever but they don't..
That's what makes me feel out of control..
Like I want to go to the beach and scream or something...
I sometimes don't understand myself...
Everytime I give someone a chance, it often breaks my heart..
And I have to seal it up again..
My heart is probably now being sealed up too many times..
Too even be open...Why..
What did I do or go wrong....
All I need is someone there to smile with..
Not just a empty shell with no soul... just entertaining me....
Why???????

Friendship.....

I recently saw a old buddy of mine way back from primary school..
I was taking the bus standing and looking out the back door
just as the driver closed it and I saw her... She had changed a lot..
from a nerdy coward person to a confident and pretty person...
I remebered the happy times we had and sad times we had..
But nothing can be done as we were separated by a glass door...
She unable to hear my shouts nor see me and I...........
Not able to get into her life again....................
Our promises were made and gone ...
How hard is it to find good friendship and how easy it is to just lose it.....
"That's what frens are for"...............

Time....of YUNI

Here I am in the BIZ Lab with YUXIN or Nicole next to me..
She is now like super shag, and feels like letting it all out at
like8:42 in the morning..
Her favorite word is 'GAN'..... Though according to her,
the other most loved word could be B_n but again, its for others to guess
and for us to know!
Nicole may have probs expressing herself in mouth but
her body movements can be super easy to read..
Duh cause knowing her for too long allows me to sometimes see through her a bit..
I guess..
So RELAX and CHILL.....NICOLE TAN YU XIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Group Projects!!!

Sometimes they can be fun other times it can be noisy but overall, we are a team, a team as one, One as a team to be the best in the groups among LRM!!!!
Rock ON!!!!!
Somewhere out there.

Railay island!!!!!

I officially hate this place right now!!!!
ARGH!!!!! I cannot find anything to it except it has 4 beaches
16 resorts and that it takes only a longtail to go there with a minium
of 6 ppl!!!!!!
Why this place of all place....
Like Dude even my folks ain't heard of this place....
Man.....well enough complaining..
Back to MISSION IMPOSSIBLE..
I HOPE NOT!!!

Lost....

Sometimes I look around me and hear lots of chatter..
But I never hear that on or around me.. Why?
Cause of my looks or my weirdness...
Either way, its not helping me...
I don't care, I must regain my stamina in two yrs to go on ahead in my
life cause thats where ppl will find me...
Somewhere out There..
Beneath the pale Moonlight!!

Bowling!!

The bowl gal in the house!
The bowl gal in the house!!!
Wee Siong was reportedly thrilled at having to go bowling...
But he did not count on the gals beating him.....
thus a few words to honour him..
YOU SUX!!!!
Go back and train for a few years then try to trash us!!!!
NEH NEH OUR LOSER OF LOWEST SCORE AT about 19 pts and below....
Drumroll pls.......WEE SIONG!!!!!!!!
Yuxin and I are making u eat some crap!!!

Holidays!!!

YEAH!!!! After the exams.. I finally get my awaited 2 week holidays..
BUt....Too many projects to do.. Why....all i want is to relax..
Why...U know i just hate ppl who pretend to do work but are probably juat sulking around at home.
Does it Work? I don't know nor want to know.
Here's a message I hope will get into your head..
Into The New World..
So get A Life!!!!

My poor BUDDY!!!

I HAD A BUDDY
HER NAME WAS NICOLE
THEN CHRISTINE
BEFORE THAT SHE WAS YUXIN
THEN ONE DAY
SHE GOT PUSHED DOWN STAIRS BY A FAT GUY
SHE STARTED CRYING
WHILE HER ANKLE SWELLED UP LIKE HELL
WHILE CRYING SHE COULD STILL CURSE THE GUY.
A QOUTE FROM HER
"I AM GOING TO SUE THE FAT GUY" X 12345643
OH WHAT A DAY GONE THROUGH BY
NICOLE TAN YUXIN.
I AM JACQUELYN BY THE WAY!

Exam Day!!!!

Today was Microeconomics.... A huge drag...
Cause maths is not up my alley... it goes out...
I still remember elastic, non-elastic and I never put the word S + Tax..
Now my head hurts.....
Hate it Hate it..
But nevermind after tomorrow's ob...
I will be free that is for two weeks but with loads of project to do!!!!

Sparkling Korea!!!! Part One

My family went to Korea last year in December...

We ate alot of food, did some shopping and many others.

For example, we ate the Ginseng Chicken in JEJU ISLAND,

Which is where the famous show.. DA CHANG JIN was shot at.

The left are noodles, the centre is KIMCHI and the left are some sprouts.

We also went to the folk village in JEJU ISLAND, where they were promoting

the show.. DA CHANG JIN.
My bro even got to post with her.=)
Apparently, he is supposed to be dying while the two are helping him.......

We also went to a tangerine farm where we picked lots and lots of tangerines though the tour guide told us to pick only 2 to 3....=)


But as a specialty of their island, tangerines can be found anywhere from the fruit itself to chocolates... YUM YUM!!!

Tangerines, Tangerines EVERYWHERE!!!!!!!!

Singapore Flyer!!!

On 17/05/08... I took my first steps towards the moon..

Okay just kidding.. But going abroad the capsule and seeing the

sites of singapore above the ground is like breathtaking.


This pic was taken abroad the capsule.. Cool and clear.. Ya!!!! And the esplanade is at the back.

Here's another pic of me in front on a capsule..

Cool Ya.. Don't mind the expression.. I mean I just had to withstand my excitement..
There were many ppl on board too.. so Ya..
Oh ya another part was we had to go through customs just to go on board and my bro was like
Must we wear seat belts or something... But those ppl were doing their jobs and something like this doesn't bother us... Yeah...Go Singapore..Go!!!

I am still I

如果你也听说
会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我

Though exams are here, projects are increasing..
But I am still I. To get my projects done, I must be harsh.. If not ..
I shall be trampled by my mates foot and follow their order.
But I will not..
For I am I but harsher than ever...

Frens or Rivals?

Tan Yu Xin or Nicole is from HTM in TP and I have known her for 4 yrs plus..
She is a nice gal but her competitive side of her often stops me in my tracks.
We are always competing over english marks and whatever.
Though she always bullies me, But she is still a one of a kind person.
Thus a declaration of war to her: See you at the finishing Line, If you can make it that is!!!
=)

Exams/Headaches

我们之间不会有改变
相同的起点一瞬间
变成了乐园
我们之间
转了一大圈
相同的终点
会发现所有的心愿会实现.

Lyrics from Lollipop's 我们之间
Exams are coming... 我们之间... Will we get better or worse.....

Exams stink!!

Just took my organisational behavior test which is 5%..
Sigh didn't get full mark.... But should be still okay..
I think...
Yeah!!!
鬼怒穿 All The Way!!!!!!

GO BIG GREEN!!!

怀念

我怀念的是无话不说 我怀念的是一起做梦......
just some lyrics from Stefanie Sun...
Though they may be just some strokes, but they are embedded deeply in my heart and soul.
I remember and keep thinking of needless words to say
I remember of the dreams we keep thinking of fulfilling
When will this day come again??????
I wonder......
I remember......

Test

Today I took a test, wrote about fashion trends and about 4 pages long.
Today is another crappy day, I saw moth's eggs at my neighbour's wall which is kind of gross.
Then I had to take about 3-4 buses just to reach home and be greeted with a fugly brother.
Man.... am I exhausted or what.
Whatever I just want to sleep now...

Signing off
Captain Poopypants.

Projects Ahoy!!!

Projects, projects , projects... Hate projects, hate deadlines!!!
Plus hate doing work.. Just kidding.. I love work.. Work is the part of my life in a long run..
Hopefully it will all go away someday in the near future.

Signing off..
Project Sign A

FUGLY THIEF OUT THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHOULD I FIND THIS FUGLY THIEF...MAY THAT PERSON BE BLESSED WITH DISASTERS, A LIFE OF BAD LIFE, A LIFE FILLED WITH POORNESS, A LIFE FILLED WITH YOUR WORST FEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! REVENGE IS SWEET AND SOON YOU WILL BE FEELING THE OUCHS AND CONSEQUENCE YOU GET FROM TOUCHING ONE OF THE MORE SUPERIOR PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!
WATCH OUT..............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Losing!!!

How does a person lose so many things in just a lifespan of 6 years. SIX FUGLY YEARS.....
First a broken umbrella, a PE shirt, soccer boots and shins, water bottles then a electronic device what next... probably the person itself will be lost. Money is still precious in this part of the world like the Sichuan earthquake.. oh how many children have died. And now some FUGLY thief comes and steal from me when I know WHO the HELL YOU ARE........ YOU ARE FUGLYLY DEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Unfairness

People used to ask parents to control their kids, be firm on them , to discipline them but now.. Things have changed. The rules in the book have all changed.. parents are now under the control of their kids. When their kid loses something worth a hundred bucks, parents will just scold them hoping they remember not to lose things any more but no matter how, some bastard with hearing problems will lose things like a psp, come home and still go about their daily routine. Have they no feelings or is this just a piece of cake!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happiness is Sweet!

Sweet candy on my tongue
No ones' there to wipe it off
One, Two ,Three!!!
Happiness is so Sweet!!!!!!!
I just love pecan apple donuts!!!

The Past, Present or Future???

The best feature of a car is always the engine, when the car is in trouble so is the engine. When the car is at its best performance, so is the engine. Its roaring noise and No-Fear attitude is one that interests all to follow. What was once a scrap of metal is now usable, admired by all. But when it is all worn ed out, its dumped in the bin, no followers this time, just pests that call it home. When it arises from the dead, new followers are ensured but the engine never forgets its humble beginnings and wants to go back to the past. Is the engine too stupid for wanting the past in the present or are human beings just realistic??

Freedom

In the sky now everyones' a white fluffy cloud all going along with the flow. when black clouds come with flashes of lightning and roars of thunders, we get frightened and try to run away. When I get surrounded by a group of black clouds with no way to go, I take a deep breath and can only feel myself being sucked into the community.When I open my eyes, I am part of a huge black cloud community where everyone is having fun as such. But I can tell from everyones' eyes that they are filled with sorrow as whenever a white cloud flows by, they want its freedom. They want to be part of a Club but wheres' the freedom and happiness..? I ask myself Where do I want to be... A manipulated idiot or a carefree cloud.

Life is a stink- BomBer

What is it about the high-tech world these days? Schools are all now using computers to communicate with their own students which stinks cause first, the programme cannot reponse to me when i need help, second the infomation of the programme makes me all headacheish and i cannot even get help from anywhere!!!!! Changing password gets me a password fail, logging in gets me of a valid authetic crap which already has my pressure high all the way....... Hate school now... what happened to all the relationships needed to go ahead in life... looks like more talking should be done to my MP4 at least it replies unlike a computer!!!!!!!!