Reflection

Looking back at life at the age of 20, I didnt realise how childish or immature I was. I always believed that I was mature and that people would realise my existence and yet I find out that I have been trying too hard. Why do I bother to get peoples' attention when they dont bother. Am I that desperate? Am I that unpopular are questions I used to ask myself in the past. And yet I discover, Im not alone, I dont have to be envious of others or pretend to be others cause I am what makes me different. I made some stupid foolish mistakes in the past but now I know that I have done wrong and yet time can't be turned back. Regret is a saying to remorse is the action to be taken to make myself better but Im not feeling it. I know Im still stuck in my own little world, I never notice how the world had changed around me, and when I do, Im late, I lose touch with people and find myself rock bottom again. Somwtimes i just wish that to be wad to forget and yet theres no way anymore.

A snowy christmas

Man, though I am not one to complain but I could certainly do so, a one in 17 chance and counting, please help me!!

Anyways am not getting enough sleep, OMG! and always going to school everyday, so not me!

But its for the best but I have a tiny wish!

Give me a white christmas!!!

Merry Christmas 2009 to alll!
May all your wishes come true!
Tell me your Wish! :D

A Saturday...Again..

Funy how a day in Year 2.2 or even a week can pass by faster than can "Blast off in the speed of light!"

Life is like so robotic these days, its like the milestone of the week will be SSM, then comes the holidays of Thurs, Fri and the Weekends to enjoy before it comes around again.

Its already coming to the fourth week... seriously the ppl in SSM are starting to get to me,
for example I went to youtube and saw this video where it ended with the little boy showing the "Loser" sign on his forehead, instant recollection of the everyday headman.

Even nowsdays just on regular schooldays, I'm so stressed on a strand oof hair just sticking up, probably thinking I am going to fail grooming!!

Serious my hair is going to fall out after all this anyway but at least there is a place I can just release though it may be gone now, but I will always treasure it.

I don want to leave!!

Boy Its been long, I mean time flies as fast as leaves fall off trees or even as fast as F1 cars speeding throgh the various gates.

Just another week before School starts, Hooray I guess but it means the year is ending soon,so fast my first milestone in life has been reached, I really hope to acomplish my next one before the next semester starts.

Once again thinking ahead of everyone else. All I want is to better lead a life with less regrets but more happy moments in life.

Its time to be independent and show the world What I'm made Of!!!

"ITS MY LIFE "
ITS NOW OR NEVER

Missing Life

A long while again, for now, its all about exams and exams, who kew what contributed to the success of condominium hotels, I mean hello where are u?

But anyway, now that I am out of TAS, I feel sad, guess sometimes you really regret when things are over...

Nowadays I feel really emo, I am not sure but i am positive that something is missing from my life though I am not sure what it is, but anyways just want to apologise for something and say thanks for something, I hate to squel it out so if you know it, you do.

But for now its time to sign off as waiter of SSM!!!! 'Tadatada'!!!

Wishes..

I sit here, not knowing what to do nor what I want..
Life was a blur, I mean getting down at a dark stop, people passing you, they seemed so familiar yet you know they have no connection to you whatsoever.
What ever happened to hi, never or even a nod?
I guess life is different as you grow,
you realise the deepest thoughts they can have on a fellow man, but even when it happens, there comes a time for decisions/choices.
I hate choices, I want a life, I want....
I guess I am selfish but its human to err right?
Don be sad, if you need me, I will be there from a far.
Just feel mty existence and all will be well.
TRUST me.

Long times...

Wll, I haven touched this blog in like...maybe a few months or less. Anyway many things have changed and happened over this few months, projects have been handled up, people change and grow up. Just things like that.

Personal wise, my cousin, Lincoln is a year and a few months now and is already able to walk, OMG and his only word is only Apple which he pronounces as Arpu! That is like so cute but hey, I'm just gald to be part of his growing process.

For myself, I have just gotten my 'Sabre' and used it once in Fencing class! Hooray for me! haha this class has been fun for me, I guess in a way it helps me to look differently on how life can sometimes revolves around a small tiny thing like attacking.

I have also changed my favorite Idol group from S.H.E to a korean girl group known as Girls Generation. They have recently received a lot of love on their recent 2nd mini album, "Tell me your wish Genie". Its awnsome and everybody is waiting for the Genie syndrome to take off after their success of the Gee syndrome. But anyway, Hwaiting girls!!!

School wise, I guess I will miss studying at TAS, though its far from my home, but its been fun, we get to enjoy ourselves and furthermore see a amusement park unfold before our very eyes! Plus with the very 'NICE' descriptions of SSM from Yuxin, makes me cannot wait just to go back to TP next term. Haha.

Oh yeah heres another gossip before I sign off, Mrs Moraes is now teaching Mass Communications at SP!!!! OMG!!! But anyways, just want to wish her luck in her career and many thanks to her for teaching me for four great years in East View. Gamsahamnida!!!

Heres wishing everyone a enjoyable week ahead!! Hwaiting!!!!!

Oh man..please slash me...

The time reads 12:42 am, on a saturday, the 23rd to be exact. Its the day my mrt concession ended, also the day where a week has passed since I did a crazy thing, its also the last two remaining days to the submission of ROM Project.. Oh man, just slash me...

These few days, I have been rather tired both physically and mentally though I am unsure what is happening in my body now, but I know this, its two weeks countdown to 'Mid term Holidays'!!!! Hiphip hooray, hiphip hooray!!! Whatever I just act high for a while, totally jashi moment!!!

Anyway, life at TAS is as per normal, I guess the only difference is that more things are learned there and I don't mean academically but rather the ways and means to survive life I guess, as much as I hate to survive with a huge pack of hyenas, but thats how the earth spins, round and round it goes.

But now, to me, to just relax and chill meself, I think I may design new future inventions for the better of mankind, like what FORGIVEN and me discussed today, a virtual, real dimesion car video game right in front of your eyes with accerlerate and brake on buttons and the starting of engine with yr right pinky... interesting, but a crazy fellow whose last name is anything wants me to think of ways to kill the bladder , hello....just a dreamer not a beamer who beams your requests at anytime.

Anyway back to tthe drawing board..Best Wishes to all!!!

Another day another money..

Ok so technically, this is my 4th week in TAS, as much as I hate to admit it, I am starting to miss TP, not because of teachers, but of the canteen food there.

Haha, anway, I have like about four project grps this time round, 3 the same and 1 with different people, of course choices can be made but I already chose them so no way was i backing down in any manner. Though I am almost project leader for most, but I will fulfil my duties as one and try to win over their trust in anyway possible or am I talking crap....

Anyway, nowwadays I hav been hanging around Vivocity with LX and Sam, I realised something about them that I never once realised before, they treated me as a real friend. Especially what has happened over the couple of days, I realised I should let go of myself more and try to trust the people around me even more. Being decieved once was hurtful, but hey who hasn't a past like this before, unless u are Mr Perfect, I would say everyone.

But what the heck, if I reallly want to find myself in this pool of talented and winner bunch, I know I have to open someway or another, maybe like LX who is the class prankster or Sam the high and mighty, otherwise, time is money and its still ticking down to my last days as a youthful youth. =)

P.S I have just taken my third Fencing lesson, so cool.. I have even held a saber and hit my coach on the head a couple of times! Z on!!

P.S.S To Sam though teasing u is now my ultimate goal but dada is definately the top of my list haha, stay Happy!!!

Merry Sul!! =)

Todae... a new day..

Todae, I woke up early and managed to get up for swimming which took around 56 minutes just from Pasir Ris to Lakeside but luckily I managed to be early enough though I was almost a little late, sorry arh. haha.

Anyway the afternoon before, I had fencing lessons with my brother and for once I realised that I had no stamina, I meant just a couple of runs and I was panting like a old dog already...sigh, better run more.

Anyway todae I went for accounting lecture, which like totally bored the hell out of me cause she went like on and on and on and like mathematics is totally not my type, anyway attendence will be taken so I had better wish that I am early and stuff and be good in class since my lecturer is my tutor...which totally stinks and also means no slacking..."NONONONO"

But overall, I am just still getting used to the overall idea of having to travel to sentosa everyday just for a lesson which may need my life sooner or later, but anway, I am now freaking tired, so its lights out for now! :)

Today..Once more..Argh!!

Today I went for my official eighth driving lesson....sigh..I hate it when time flies so fast, people change whether better or worst but still...when people meet, whether familiar faces or not, sometimes just a little wave is shown and they are off on their separate paths, the one they chose to follow, freely or when in desperation....

Personally, I really want to change but differently, like sometimes, one cannot judge a book by its cover and its true, my bro's secondary school is causing so much trouble for my family, that I cannot take it, I mean what happen to the clean responsible image it gave to parents that their children would be able to learn and study in a good environment with no lack of equipment or facilities, apparently its his school.

I mean in which school does a home econs teacher tell you to bring your own plates to present the dish one is making or even to buy the ingredients without even paying us back the money we use... That is just the tip of the ice berg.

Next is, why is it that my brother when in charge of the stupid class notice board has to take responsibility of printing not in black and white but rather in color just to suit the taste of the classroom, I mean what the Hell... I for one am never trusting this useless, cheating school ever again!!!!!!!

Todae..Tmr a milestone..

Todae at the time I am blogging is 10:52pm, 5th of March...Three months have passed since I last blogged.. Anyway, tomorrow is a huge milestone for me cause I will be taking my e-trails for my basic theory test for driving.. Sigh..a blink of a eye and I am the huge 18...legal for some stuff..But still, did I mention that I hate to grow up, I mean come on what with all the responsibilities and having to face all consequences after your own actions, makes you want to rethink if being born a human was a right choice to make cause life is fragile and regardless of race, langauge or religion, we will all die one day, not knowing whats life after death.. But one thing is for sure, cherish your life now or just waste your time away.

My brother is now in Pasir Ris Crest sceondary School. My folks are all proud of him cause he did good and I guess I just want him to be a big member of the family, cause i am already clearing the path for him and as long as he does good, he will definately turn out okay!

Todae is New years eve..31/12/08..

The time is 10:27am.. only about 13 hours left til the year changes from 2008 to the big 2009...
I just cannot believe it...Back in the year 2007 at this time of the year, I was just a lowly vegetable packer waiting for my O level results to come out.... But now, here I am, a Leisure and Resort Management Student in her first year and second sem..... How time passes..

Anyway, I would like to say my new year resolutions before th year officially ends..
1) Be nice to all people especially Nicole( although she often curshes at me)
2) Learn new talents to make myself better as a individual
3) Decide what kind of life I am going to take
4) Appreciate the finest and most precious things in life.
5) BE as happy as always regardless of the situation :)

Lastly, I would like to say that this year has led me to realise that there are far too many fragile things in life not as in physical but mentally... Perhaps its cause my hormones are changing my brain, spinning it til it starts to mess up whatever I had actually wanted.. But for now, all I want is just some calm, peacefulness and some happiness in my life cause this 3 years of my life are crucial that is til I follow my aunt's wishes and go abroad to study in a university....
Maybe its just me but why is it so hard to be a teenager!?

....HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Start of new School Term..

Hey everybody, two weeks of holidays have like passed us so fast in like a blink of an eye..
But anyway, hope everyone had as much fun as i did. HAHA
Anyway, I went to Taiwan on the first week of holidays and now due to my overstreched body cranking me for a rest, I have no choice but to post my pics a bit later.

Also finally in 2008, I welcomed new new additional baby cousins to the family... They are Jelexis, Lincoln and Royston... whom are all '17' YEARS YOUNGER THAN ME....Oh MAN!!!! HAHAAA!

Now there are many more projects to pile up so I am just waiting to the new chinese newyear to get it done with..hahha

Anyway heres wishing everyone

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!

Nuts

Wow todae is like the worst day of my life, first we took bus 8 but it always is very crowded..then next when I wanted to go for marketing goup discussion, the lift came down full of stupid people who anyway wanted to just come down to the first floor...Imagine that....
Then I went to use my laptop with Nicole..then anyway, her laptop could connect faster than mine to TP's network and for me, I started at 12:57pm and only got my connection at 2:41pm... Talk about being ironic...but anyway it include a couple of shut downs and stuff..

Then I came back from POM lecture and saw that Nicole had gone crazy like she started asking me questions on where is L.A. duh...everyone knows its in america but no..her answer is L.A. is in north america, California, L.A.
Talk about WTH is she yapping about...
anyway, i have a WT quiz later at 6pm...Hope I pass man..
Plus should I donate my preious blood which is the laste of the lengendary vampires..
HAHA Just kidding!!!!

Anyway Thanks to Zippy who has been helping me these days.:)

I'm happy...

Today I had a friendly talk with Zippy, a new friend I made from my childhood..Haha..
I guess that it was fate when we met but for now, we are still able to get back to bond we had. He opened me up to many things that I was afraid to face and he was there by my side when I felt lonely or sad... I know we will go our seperate ways soon but I want you to know that I will be there for you as much as you will be there for me....

:) I can only waish you the best and thank you for the happiest days of my life..

Thanks Zippy!

Japanese culture

How happy was I when I got Japanese for a CDS, I mean friends there, new teacher, but I just need more practising cause I can be a little lazy to revise but I had better start soon...

How I wish I was born in that culture cause I would have a life and people around would be sensitive, polite and understanding to others..

But I guess wishes just cannot come true sometimes....

Ironic- :S

How ironic that my last post happened to be a week ago and done almost exactly the same time now. But I'm not laughing cause...well I don know, I just feel so complicated..I mean visible things ditch me, talk to me...make jokes..But my life is like so set..I mean a group of people does not mean eternity forever..

I mean just grow up cause I am not going to just feed somebody else when we are in the working environment...

One can be used to a secondary school environment but just get out of it or lose the life forever..Too ridiculous but it can be true.

"ITs my life, Its now or never.."
Thats how I live my life now and it will not change!

Saturday stress..

Woke up pretty late this morning..Haha ok maybe about 12pm.. Then I watched clips of the 43th Golden bell awards..So cool.. I mean Ariel won best actress and Jacky wu and a ya finally won best host after a 12 year wait.

Haha looks like good things do come to the suface when a silver lining is hanging in the air...
My life is getting a up turn now I guess at least according to the stars..haha

I feel like a group of ppl that come together have got to have the luck and courage to work together so now..I hop that many will forgive me for the steps I may take..
My apologises to many first....

Best of luck!!!

Boredom

Today is the 30th of October 2008... Now I am all alone in the free access lab..So here I am blogging. I just had a two hour tutorial on FnB but it was fun cause we only watch like the documentary.. "Super Size ME". So ya but like my lecturer is again the same as the teacher we had for my lecture... Boring maybe but if he keeps quiet..Its a completely different scenario all over.

Yesterday I finally met my Marketing tutorial teacher..Cool english accent, weird hairdo..but overall I actually paid my full attention and understood what I should be doing in the class..
One word to describe the class...AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!

I think that I have a stuffed nose cause I cannot breathe properly..or is it all the tuna sandwiches.. Anyway I have a camp to go to soon on a Sat and Sun with Nicole who promises that she is free on those days.. Plus later at 4pm, I have a Jap tutorial and lecture to go to..
Wish me luck to pay full attention..HAHA

Anyway, Pls support S.H.E's new 11th album "FM S.H.E"
It totally rawks!!!!!!