HAHAHAHA

Nowadays I just want to laugh out loud and I mean really loud...
But who will be there to hear....Myself...Jashi...or even anyone?
I used to look at myself as someone cool maybe even a role model to look up to...
But after going through the many times of having to make friends and separate from
them again.....I find myself at a deep end like...the computer would be my best friend or
looking at others having fun makes me sad but happy for them.
I know myself as one that people will avoid...detest or maybe even make fun of.
Cause I have been a victim of being stupidly made fun of without a clue...
I have locked myself up tightly but I have been too afraid to even accept a new something or someone with out even looking at the whole picture. One of these days...I will open up and be a new me. One with accomplishments, one with wit and even one who can gain other's respect...
My only wish...