Sad...

I used to think that friends would last forever but they don't..
That's what makes me feel out of control..
Like I want to go to the beach and scream or something...
I sometimes don't understand myself...
Everytime I give someone a chance, it often breaks my heart..
And I have to seal it up again..
My heart is probably now being sealed up too many times..
Too even be open...Why..
What did I do or go wrong....
All I need is someone there to smile with..
Not just a empty shell with no soul... just entertaining me....
Why???????